I still have feelings for my boyfriend why?

We've been dating for 3 to 4 months (I know not that long) but we have moved pretty fast were great together..the only thing is he kinda has his life together he's going to college and soon getting a job me on the other hand I have a full time job but not in college soon to be but at this moment I'm not another thing is my mom kicked out of my home and he has been supportive I've been living in my friends house well friend to friend and its soo much stress for me to deal with my living situation and dealing with me getting in college and then dealing with work and our relationship its been to much...sooo I decided to call it off for now I've told him once I get everything together with me getting in school dorming this september. I told him I want to focus on getting my **** together....but now I feel regretful like I feel I'm alone missing the greatest thing that's has happened to me ever he's to sweet kind generous and so romantic...I just feel like ill never meet any other guy like him its the most horrible feeling I have. The pro to our relationship is were pretty much amazing together sure we have disagreements on silly things the only two cons are one we don't have a lot in common but we still made it work and two he's like a verse and I'm a top I've tried to bottom for him and its not my thing I love him and all I'm not scared of it I've did tried it cause I love him but I just can't what I want to know is is it smart to have ended it and just be friends or try to rekindle what we have by the way he doesn't seem he wants to try cause he can't believe that ill stay with him so its hard for him to. Being with out him feels like I'm missing apart of me.....he made me keep going when I wanted to give up...I have seen him in a while now that ill cry if I see him we've spoken over the phone but not in person